soo theres this guy paul, right? well i prank called him and i told him i thought he was cute, which was the truth. i wanted to call him because i wanted to tell him that, but my friend told me not to tell him my real name. so i lied to him. i told him my name was Christina. i pretend to be someone i wasnt, but the truth is it was me all along it just wasnt my name. well after that call we became some what closer i guess. we talked for hours on the phone getting to know each other, making plans to go out and stuff. since then ive been wanting to tell him the truth about my real name, but everytime i tried to i backed down because i thought he would get mad at me and i didnt want to lose him as my friend. hes a real great guy and really nice, funny, out going.. etc etc. well after one night when we had an honest conversation i could bare lieing to him about who i was. i felt awful. so the next day i told him i wasnt christina and i was dannica. he was mad. i knew he would be but i didnt think it would be this bad. when i told him yesterday, i saw him at a party i went to. he didnt even say hi. he just ignored me and just looked past me. i understood why he was mad, but i didnt think it would have turned out like this. i was sorry about everything. i wanted to say Hi to him and talk to him but i was affaird of what would happen. so i waited until i had the guts to talk to him, but right when i was going to go up to him. he left. i fely dumb for waiting so long to go up to him, i didnt know what i was thinking. it sucks that it had to go down like this. i wish i could turn back time and never lied to him about my name, things would have been different. i just want to appologize to him for lieing, but i guess ill never get the chance to make things right with him..

okay.. i guess its time for me to get all my feelings out now.. so basically josh and i are over. i tried so hard into making us work but i guess my hardest wasnt good enough. it was three long months since we were together, and now its gone just like that. he used to tell me how i was letting go of what we have and how we should never give up and how he would die with out me in his life.. i miss thoughs days when he used to say that. he was honestly the sweetest guy ive been with, the one i can run to and tell him everything.. its funny how things can change so fast.. i look back and i think where did i go wrong? people tell me it was never my fault and how he should never have treated me like an ass and how he was worng to do some much stuff behind my back, but yanoe what? it was okay with me. i would have done anything for that guy even though he didnt the same. i just wanted him to be happy, even though i wasnt. but it sometimes gets me now. i told him i wasnt happy anymore but now i was always happy with him and when i hear his voice on the other line relieved all my stress.. he was my medicine. sounds pretty strange but its true. even though i felt as if i wasnt appericiated i just realized that it didnt matter what i was feeling at the moment because i know it would changed during time.. it probably was a bad timing kind of thing, its hard for me to say but i think i was wrong bout this whole thing.. but then theres other problems that took place and it was to much for me to handle.. hmm iderno` maybe i should have never broke up with him.. its only been a week.. hopefully its no to late..

1St
Breaking up is hard to do thats why im feeling so blue
I want him back by mai side so wen i see him i dont have to hide
All i want is him wid meeh but i dont knoe if i should let him be
So right now i dont have a clue but next time ill just ask yew

2Nd
I think i love yew but i dont knoe
If i do how can i let it show
Should i tell yew or should i not
Cuz the feelings i have for yew just cant stop

For Dis OnE PErsOn

Once again i am SINGLE!!